Looking for the goodness

Looking for the Goodness

Here’s a lesson we can all learn from a child’s point of view. Recently, we were helping for a weekend with a couple of our grandkids. Our grandson, Emerson, 5, had a pretty great thought.

Here goes the exchange with his dad:

Em:  Holding one up, Em asks, “Dad, can I have a Fruit Roll-up?”

Son Nick:  “How about we wait until after lunch, Em, ok?”

Em:  Takes the Fruit Roll-up back to the pantry, comes back a couple minutes later with the Fruit Roll-up unwrapped and unfurled. Holding it up so Dad can see the whole thing, he says Look, Dad, see? There’s all kinds of goodness in there!

I almost snorted my coffee out my nose. Can’t argue with that, now can you? 🙂  Apparently, all you have to do is look for the goodness in things and everything suddenly becomes clear and obvious.

Grandkids are great.  Make it a great day!

Gather and hold on to your moments of Grace.

Connections

This has been very much a recurring theme and acknowledgment for me over the past year. Connection. My One Word for 2019, in fact. I see both the human need for connection, and the blessing of making and having good connections, in different cultures and locations all around the world. I do acknowledge that for some people, this takes effort to get past fears and out of your comfort zone, and for others of us, it’s as normal as breathing, something you actually seek out at every opportunity.

When we think about connections is it just the people that we know? Or is it the people who know us? How do we get to know them, to truly connect with them and know what is important to them? By asking questions and then listening. Truly listening. People tell me that I have a lot of connections. I do, but not in the sense that I have strings that I can pull to take advantage somehow. I cherish my connections with people who have trusted me enough to share something important, like the source of their wisdom, or concerns they have about serious things. Heartfelt losses, health scares, tragic events that happened to them or childhoods best left as a distant memory.

Nelson Mandela used the word “ubuntu“. Ubuntu is a Zulu word that means “I am, because of you.” People are people because of people. We need each other. We make each other what we are. We are connected to people because we were meant to be. Some as a result of our families; other connections are from encounters which we have had the privilege to experience. We call some of them “lucky” and others are the result of years of planning and preparation. I recently told a good friend that “I think that I’m a collector of stories”. He gently corrected me by observing that I was “a collector of experiences which have become stories”. I appreciate them all.

I appreciate every connection as a Moment of Grace.

I ran into an angel today…

I ran into an angel today

Sometimes I run into angels. That day I backed into an angel. Pretty sure. “Merry Christmas”. The elderly gentleman just said, “Merry Christmas”!

Last Christmas I had to run to Menard’s for something, and I may have not been paying perfect attention, but as I got ready to back out of my parking space, I did look back, I really did. I thought it was open behind me. I didn’t realize that there was anybody there until I heard an awful crunching sound and felt my car jerk to a sudden halt. I hate when that happens, because I’m just nuts about scrapes and dings on anything I own. I had backed right into the corner of this fellow’s car. I jumped out, profusely apologizing and trying to explain that I never saw him. Well, no kidding, Sherlock. I felt so bad for him, his nice car now scraped up, and for my own damage, and he just calmly said, “Don’t worry about it. It’s really nothing.”

I had an eerie feeling that either he was an angel sent to remind me that I needed to be more careful while backing up, or maybe that he had something seriously much worse than this event going on in his life, because he wanted nothing from me. No contact or insurance information, no exchange of phone numbers. All he said was “Don’t worry about it. It’s really nothing. Merry Christmas.”

An angel. A moment of Grace.

Harvestore Hang-up

Harvestore Hang-up

I was 16, and had gotten a summer-long job working for a very busy local dairyman. My official job was to cut hay, and in between that do whatever was needed on the dairy. He had a really nice new self-propelled John Deere swather, and being able to spank down huge fields at pretty high speeds, spinning 180° at the ends of the rows, was a huge treat after only using a pull-behind Hesston mower-conditioner. It was sweet, and typically occupied me for 6-7 days straight of 12-15 hour days to knock down about 400 acres of alfalfa, then do it again 28 days later. Other jobs in between included hauling chopped alfalfa to the silo blowers, or even baling or stacking small bales if they needed some baled hay in the barn for winter feeding. “Grandma” always made sure I had a good breakfast (including fried blood sausage every day) before I hit the fields. I worked alone nearly all the time, and one day I was blowing alfalfa haylage up one of the three blue 24’X80′ Harvestore structures. I knew that first unit was nearly full, so I started the electric blower, set the wagon to unload at a reasonable pace, and headed up the 80′ silo to check how it was filling. It was about 6′ from the center hole, and you shouldn’t fill a Harvestore tight full to the top. There are two holes on the top of a Harvestore, one in the center where the product fills, and one nearer the edge that functions both as a ventilation air release and is an access option if you fill tight up to the hole in the center. It was getting close to being filled, and if the flow was stopped even momentarily, the pipe would have plugged immediately, all the way to the ground, and with the blower and wagon running without supervision, there would have been no way for me to have scrambled 80′ down before VERY significant damage was caused to the blower and unloading wagon below. I started in the center with my pitchfork, tossing haylage out toward the sides while the blower kept blowing it in fast, first from outside, on top of the structure, then I scurried down the outside hatch and furiously pulled haylage toward the outside while the blower poured it in the center. There is always the possibility of either running out of oxygen in a silo, and fermentation gases have killed more than a few people who have entered silos. I was 16, ok? Anyway, it was fast and furious work, but in the end, the load finally ran out and I was ok.

So, then what happened?

So I dragged myself out the side hole, back up onto the roof of the Harvestore, and as we were definitely done filling that one, the top needed cleaning off. During filling, dust and chaff and leaves blow and build up on the roof of the unit, and we kept a small push broom up on top just to be able to push the stuff off and clean up a bit. No one ever intended that it would be used while standing outside the protective railings which parallel and encircle the access areas. Yes, let that sink in a minute. Outside the railings. The roof of a Harvestore structure is like the sides – shiny glass fused to steel panels, held together with bolts that have a round-headed cap nut on each one. I know the design down to the threads. So I started out pushing just a little further with each broom push, keeping one hand on the railing and pushing the broom one-handed with the other. Keep in mind that these structures are 24′ in diameter. And I was trying to reach the edges with a standard little push broom. So my 16-year-old brain (having survived the filling scare) let me let go of the railing and put one foot each on the rows of bolt heads proceeding out from the center like radiating wedges. Sweeping ahead of myself worked great for a few minutes. I was proud of my fine cleaning efforts. Until a foot hit a patch of the chaff and my body flipped 90° instantly and made me think I had broken my tailbone. But only for an instant, as I was sliding at breakneck speed toward the edge of the 80′ tall structure, only to have my jeans snagged by a bolt head with both legs hanging over the side. Yes, hanging over the side. Both legs. All by myself. Tractor and blower still running below me.

I just sort of hung there for a minute, contemplating my mortality, then gradually started inching my way backward, creeping back using the row of bolts for traction until I reached the access platform and railing. I went back down the silo, moved the blower to the next unit, and went for the next load, saying nothing to my boss.

Thirty-plus years later, I shared this story privately with my dad when we were talking one day. He stopped me cold, and made me promise that I would NEVER tell this story to my mother. Dad passed away a few years later, and then mom four years after that. I never told her.

Someone was watching out for me that day.

Snowblind

Snowblind Moments of Grace

Driving on Hwy 29 east after a meeting in Minneapolis, I had the unusual situation of having three other fellows in the car with me for the trip. Normally I traveled alone. This had been an unusual meeting, as the whole Midwest staff was summoned to Minneapolis for a meeting where they announced not only the merger of two former competitors’ feed divisions, but also shared that about 700 people were being let go in the process. Some were being offered the opportunity to interview for positions in the new organization, and I ended up being rehired later into a different territory, but that’s a different story. The drive home was a pretty somber one for all of us, and it was accentuated by the heavy snow coming down and blowing. I did not have an AWD vehicle, just a standard Chevy sedan, wrangling snow building up on the two-lane highway. Every vehicle that went by in the oncoming lane left you awash in blowing snow and made seeing and driving very treacherous, leaving you in a whiteout for a few seconds. Semis could be seen in the front, but the back parts of each vehicle were invisible.

Explosion of glass

Hidden in the backwash of one, a jacked up pickup or utility-type truck was following way too close for good visibility of their own, but maybe being up pretty high helped them. I cleared the semi OK, but suddenly in the swirling snow behind it I saw the bumper and front tire of another vehicle, way too close to my front quarter-panel, and as it went by, the second truck clipped my mirror. That sedan had a mirror that was integral to the window, and the force of the mirror being hit exploded my driver’s side window into thousands of tiny glass cubes, leaving me with glass peppered into my face and hands, my lap full of small glass pieces, and everyone in the car with glass in their laps.

The truck kept going, and I was able to keep my car under control somehow and pull over after a bit. Traffic was steady in both directions, and the snowdrifts prevented me from immediately heading for the shoulder. When we were finally able to stop, I slowly swung out of my seat and shook the glass bits out of my clothes, and we wondered how we were going to complete four more hours driving with a blown-out window in a snowstorm. I dug in the trunk and took a corduroy sportcoat out of my suitcase, positioned it inside the broken window, and slammed the door to cover the opening. After picking the bigger glass bits out of my face in the mirror, we took off for the rest of the drive east. I think all four of us were thinking that if the truck had been even two inches further into our lane, we would have been in much worse shape. I never even wanted to think how much worse it easily could have been; I just accepted that we either got lucky or were blessed.

Someone was watching out for me that day.

Hand on my shoulder – comforting

hand-on-my-shoulder-comforting

My cousin’s wife contracted pancreatic cancer in her 30’s. They had 3 beautiful young daughters, and the fight was gallant, but in the end she lost the battle. Seeing her at home in a hospital gown, IV’s wheeling around, trying to go about her day, was a hard thing for everyone to experience. She never gave up, and my cousin, Andy, was so full of faith and grace and hope all during the year she was undergoing treatment. He is a great inspiration to me and many others, as his faith is so solid.

Connecting, passing in the night

Andy drives semi on a route system at night and has for years, and through the years, when I’ve been traveling late at night, I would call him and we’d talk about everything from the weather to the traffic, or family catch-up, or even what our hopes and goals and fears were. Having gone through cancer treatments myself, I talk about the process more openly than some people might, so we have become very closely connected over the years. One night we were talking, both of us hands-free, of course, and after a few minutes I asked where he was tonight, and he said he was off his normal route (from Madison to either Chicago or Milwaukee) and had been asked to cover another driver’s route from Madison to LaCrosse and back. “No kidding!”, I said. “I’m on my way to Mankato and I’m on I-90 between Madison and LaCrosse right now!” “Get out of here! What mile marker are you at?”, he asked. I gave him the mile marker, and as it turned out, we passed each other going opposite directions less than a minute later, blinking lights to each other. Great coincidence. 🙂 His dad, my uncle, pulled me aside at a family function once and said, “Hey, you know how you call Andy once in a while?” I didn’t know that anyone else knew about our chats, but I answered “Yes?” “Keep doing that, OK?”, he said. And here I thought I was the one getting the benefit of our talks as I always felt better after our calls. My uncle passed away the next year.

The funeral…

Andy asked me to sing a very special song at his wife’s funeral when it came time. It was a song that they had especially enjoyed listening to together, one that meant a great deal to both of them. There Will Be A Day tells the story that one day, the tears will stop, the day when we see Jesus face to face. It would be the toughest song I ever sang, both from knowing the family and the situation, and the amazing story the song tells. It also is a song that has a wonderful presence of emotion built right into it, the mechanics and delivery can be powerful. I practiced it relentlessly, and I was determined to deliver it in my professional best way possible, detaching myself as best I could, to bring the power and a moment of grace to Andy and his girls that day. As the introduction to the song built up, I could feel at first a sweat coming over me, a great lump building in my throat, just feeling the emotion of their loss overwhelming me. At precisely the right moment, I had a feeling of peace on my neck and shoulders, a gentle touch relaxing me, a breath of air even, like a small fan had just turned on somewhere, but of course there was none. I delivered what is quite probably the best song delivery I have ever done, voice full, every emotion full and then drained from me by the end.

I told my wife about the experience afterward, and she calmly shared that she could see the emotion building in me, overcoming me, and that she had prayed right then that the Holy Spirit would comfort me, calm me, bring me peace and let me do the song for Andy and his girls.

Someone was watching over and helping me that day, and I am grateful.

Easter weekend in Shenyang

Easter weekend in Shenyang

On one of my China trips, I finished my China business in Shenyang, and had the weekend before I continued on to Japan on Monday. Easter weekend as it turned out. Now Easter is not a huge holiday across China, but this one was an especially reflective and spiritual one for me as it turned out. I took a short train ride from Changchun to Shenyang, and I had read ahead about a very special museum located there. It is the home of the 9.18 Museum, a chilling museum which tells such an important story, commemorating September 18, 1935, the day Japanese forces invaded China and subsequently occupied Shenyang and the surrounding peninsula. It displays disturbing photos depicting the carnage of war. The exhibition is cruel, but it tells the critically important history of the early-mid 20th century between Japan and China and how important the peace is. I visited the museum on Saturday and it was a somber learning experience with my Chinese guide. He really did not want to take me there, but I wanted to learn. I now can completely understand why the Chinese are distrustful still of Japanese people.

Shenyang is also the home of the largest Catholic cathedral in China, the Sacred Heart or NanGuan Cathedral. It turned out that it was only two or three blocks from the hotel I had chosen in the heart of the city. Friday was Good Friday, and I walked over to the cathedral to check it out and say a quiet prayer. When I got back to my room, it was just coming up on sunset, and through the incredibly dirty windows, I looked out on the silhouette of three construction cranes that instantly had me thinking of the three crosses, outlined at dusk. Easter Sunday service was the absolute most packed, standing-room only service I have ever experienced, the organ music was great, and I stood out like an albino moose in a herd of reindeer, head and shoulders taller than any other person there, and easily the whitest. They were kind, but that is most certainly not the way to just “blend in” with the local population.

All in all, a tremendously spiritual and introspective Easter weekend. A “moment of Grace” that lasted several days.

Pub Cabin Music and Beer Therapy

God wink

Having just returned from a trip to Utah, my brother-in-law brought a 6-pack of Wasatch Brewing’s Polygamy Porter to a big music jam that we held in our backyard. It’s apparently a very dark beer, and uses the catchphrase “Why have just one?” I thought it was kind of unusual (the beer name, I mean), and no, I had not had it nor heard of it before (the beer). Our Pub Cabin Music Jam was publicized via invite over a couple months, and I worked to get local musicians to join us just for some good food, drink, and making music. Over 100 people attended.

One fellow I invited had played mandolin over the years, but said he had really stopped playing, but after a pretty substantial amount of coaxing, said that he would come, but probably not play. At the party, after having been there for half an hour or so, he walked up and said to me that he had been in a pretty dark place for the past few years, and really had pretty much given up on life, but that he appreciated the invitation. In fact, he was so glad that he had come, because there was something about the day that made him feel like he had reached a significant turning point right there, right at our Music Jam. He could feel that life was turning around for him, and he could feel so much positive energy that he felt rejuvenated, uplifted. You know what was stranger? He came to the party wearing a Polygamy Porter t-shirt, and said that he had never been to Wasatch Brewing, but his nephews liked to bring funky t-shirts back from their travels for his collection.

Strange coincidence, or moment of Grace?

Mikel

Mikel - Moments of Grace

Mikel had a very slight build, I guessed 25-ish, with an engaging smile and an earnestness about him that I found difficult to ignore. While I usually quickly say “No, thank you…” to the credit card promoters in the airport terminal, or just try and avoid making eye contact, Mikel was serious about wanting to engage people. After I spoke with him a bit, his earnestness might also be able to be seen as unusual drive to make his day happen. I sensed that he had come from a state of very deep poverty, and I was correct as I learned more about him. He asked what I did, and when I said that I was in my own business as a consultant, he right away asked how I might help him be more successful in his own quest to be a global consultant, that he was trying to get started. I tried to share that my own network of contacts that made up my initial business came from 35+ years of work in a somewhat specialized field, and that you can’t create that experience any other way than by a lot of years doing something, but that he should believe in his own success as very possible if he keeps engaging people the way he did me.

Staying positive…

After we talked about his goals and ambitions, he asked me how I stayed so positive and optimistic while starting a new business. I explained that much of it for me comes from having faced threats to my life and survived, and that those experiences make me value the people and relationships I’m allowed to enjoy and develop, even some as short as the one I shared with him, that his perseverance was infectious. He then shared that he had grown up in a war-torn place in eastern Africa, and I expect that one of the reasons he was so small was due to really poor nutrition for many of his early years. He had seen horrible things happen around him, had lost the sight in one eye, and he felt really lucky to be able to pursue his dreams in America, that many people he knew when he was young would never have the opportunities he now had.

Thank you, Mikel, for lifting me up that day.

I decided to let Delta know how much I appreciated their young credit card fellow.

————— Original Message —————

To: wecare@delta.com

Subject: OCSD-Share a Compliment-General Feedback-Other General Feedback

I met a wonderful young man today, and I just wanted to share my experience. I don’t know if he is a full-fledged Delta employee or a contractor, but he connects very well with people and deserves to be recognized as a sincere and positive contributor in the airport there in Atlanta. He was in the B terminal I believe between B24 and B32 perhaps, promoting the Delta credit cards today. His name is Mikell (not sure of spelling), and while I usually brush these folks off after years of frequent travel, he seemed really sincere and pleasant, so I talked with him a bit. He really did want to know a little more about me, and in just a few minutes, I really felt lifted up by just having had the chance to meet him. He is a really decent guy, and I thank him for being there today. Nice job, Mikell. The world can be a thankless place sometimes, but you are making a difference just by showing interest in people you meet.

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Hello David,

RE: Case 02059332

Thank you for writing us regarding your experience with Mikel, one of our American Express vendors in the Atlanta airport. While our American Express vendor team work hard every day, I was very pleased that Mikel left such an impression on you. This is the impact we want our employees to make on our passengers.

We are glad that your experience exceeded your expectations. I have forwarded your kind words to our Airport Customer Service Leadership team so they can commend Mikel for his exemplary customer service and also use him as an example for others to follow.

David, thank you for being the best part of Delta and a valued SkyMiles member! I hope that you have a wonderful weekend and we look forward to seeing you on another Delta flight soon!

Regards,

Curtis C. Speziale Jr

Customer Care

Are our lives planned or random?

Being comfortable with people who look or sound different

I think from time to time that we all need to ponder whether our life is or was planned, our experiences through childhood considered by our parents, what God’s plan is for us, and how much we’ve taken the best advantage of the gifts of all kinds that we’ve been granted. We are all left to wonder whether our circumstances and experiences were random? Fate or destiny? Planned?

From my earliest childhood memories, I recall positive experiences being with people from widely different backgrounds. From meeting and playing with families of different races in the inner city of Milwaukee, even during the race protests of the early ’60’s, having numerous international college students eating with us and spending time at our house, learning songs from Korea, Nigeria and Ghana, words and foods from Japan, having real Mexican tamales become a lifelong favorite taste after hanging out in the onion sheds with kids in the migrant camps. Then there were the regular new family arrivals, with five Korean and three Filipino siblings each bringing new words, tastes, and music.

I believe that our parents planned for us to be open and comfortable with cultures and people who didn’t look or sound like us. It was conscious and proactive on their part, and I don’t think I fully appreciated the blessing wrapped into it until I was offered the opportunity to write my own job description and take on an international business development challenge for 6+ years late in my career. The people I was working with had observed how freely and positively I interacted with international visitors, trying to learn a few phrases (pronounced correctly!) with each one. I guess that I had always taken that ease or ability for granted. In fact, I believe that it was taught and nurtured from very young on.

Traveling – it leaves you speechless, then it turns you into a storyteller – Ibn Battuta

I am grateful for all of those life experiences. For me, they are a lifelong collection of moments of Grace.