I ran into an angel today…

I ran into an angel today

Sometimes I run into angels. That day I backed into an angel. Pretty sure. “Merry Christmas”. The elderly gentleman just said, “Merry Christmas”!

Last Christmas I had to run to Menard’s for something, and I may have not been paying perfect attention, but as I got ready to back out of my parking space, I did look back, I really did. I thought it was open behind me. I didn’t realize that there was anybody there until I heard an awful crunching sound and felt my car jerk to a sudden halt. I hate when that happens, because I’m just nuts about scrapes and dings on anything I own. I had backed right into the corner of this fellow’s car. I jumped out, profusely apologizing and trying to explain that I never saw him. Well, no kidding, Sherlock. I felt so bad for him, his nice car now scraped up, and for my own damage, and he just calmly said, “Don’t worry about it. It’s really nothing.”

I had an eerie feeling that either he was an angel sent to remind me that I needed to be more careful while backing up, or maybe that he had something seriously much worse than this event going on in his life, because he wanted nothing from me. No contact or insurance information, no exchange of phone numbers. All he said was “Don’t worry about it. It’s really nothing. Merry Christmas.”

An angel. A moment of Grace.

Harvestore Hang-up

Harvestore Hang-up

I was 16, and had gotten a summer-long job working for a very busy local dairyman. My official job was to cut hay, and in between that do whatever was needed on the dairy. He had a really nice new self-propelled John Deere swather, and being able to spank down huge fields at pretty high speeds, spinning 180° at the ends of the rows, was a huge treat after only using a pull-behind Hesston mower-conditioner. It was sweet, and typically occupied me for 6-7 days straight of 12-15 hour days to knock down about 400 acres of alfalfa, then do it again 28 days later. Other jobs in between included hauling chopped alfalfa to the silo blowers, or even baling or stacking small bales if they needed some baled hay in the barn for winter feeding. “Grandma” always made sure I had a good breakfast (including fried blood sausage every day) before I hit the fields. I worked alone nearly all the time, and one day I was blowing alfalfa haylage up one of the three blue 24’X80′ Harvestore structures. I knew that first unit was nearly full, so I started the electric blower, set the wagon to unload at a reasonable pace, and headed up the 80′ silo to check how it was filling. It was about 6′ from the center hole, and you shouldn’t fill a Harvestore tight full to the top. There are two holes on the top of a Harvestore, one in the center where the product fills, and one nearer the edge that functions both as a ventilation air release and is an access option if you fill tight up to the hole in the center. It was getting close to being filled, and if the flow was stopped even momentarily, the pipe would have plugged immediately, all the way to the ground, and with the blower and wagon running without supervision, there would have been no way for me to have scrambled 80′ down before VERY significant damage was caused to the blower and unloading wagon below. I started in the center with my pitchfork, tossing haylage out toward the sides while the blower kept blowing it in fast, first from outside, on top of the structure, then I scurried down the outside hatch and furiously pulled haylage toward the outside while the blower poured it in the center. There is always the possibility of either running out of oxygen in a silo, and fermentation gases have killed more than a few people who have entered silos. I was 16, ok? Anyway, it was fast and furious work, but in the end, the load finally ran out and I was ok.

So, then what happened?

So I dragged myself out the side hole, back up onto the roof of the Harvestore, and as we were definitely done filling that one, the top needed cleaning off. During filling, dust and chaff and leaves blow and build up on the roof of the unit, and we kept a small push broom up on top just to be able to push the stuff off and clean up a bit. No one ever intended that it would be used while standing outside the protective railings which parallel and encircle the access areas. Yes, let that sink in a minute. Outside the railings. The roof of a Harvestore structure is like the sides – shiny glass fused to steel panels, held together with bolts that have a round-headed cap nut on each one. I know the design down to the threads. So I started out pushing just a little further with each broom push, keeping one hand on the railing and pushing the broom one-handed with the other. Keep in mind that these structures are 24′ in diameter. And I was trying to reach the edges with a standard little push broom. So my 16-year-old brain (having survived the filling scare) let me let go of the railing and put one foot each on the rows of bolt heads proceeding out from the center like radiating wedges. Sweeping ahead of myself worked great for a few minutes. I was proud of my fine cleaning efforts. Until a foot hit a patch of the chaff and my body flipped 90° instantly and made me think I had broken my tailbone. But only for an instant, as I was sliding at breakneck speed toward the edge of the 80′ tall structure, only to have my jeans snagged by a bolt head with both legs hanging over the side. Yes, hanging over the side. Both legs. All by myself. Tractor and blower still running below me.

I just sort of hung there for a minute, contemplating my mortality, then gradually started inching my way backward, creeping back using the row of bolts for traction until I reached the access platform and railing. I went back down the silo, moved the blower to the next unit, and went for the next load, saying nothing to my boss.

Thirty-plus years later, I shared this story privately with my dad when we were talking one day. He stopped me cold, and made me promise that I would NEVER tell this story to my mother. Dad passed away a few years later, and then mom four years after that. I never told her.

Someone was watching out for me that day.

Snowblind

Snowblind Moments of Grace

Driving on Hwy 29 east after a meeting in Minneapolis, I had the unusual situation of having three other fellows in the car with me for the trip. Normally I traveled alone. This had been an unusual meeting, as the whole Midwest staff was summoned to Minneapolis for a meeting where they announced not only the merger of two former competitors’ feed divisions, but also shared that about 700 people were being let go in the process. Some were being offered the opportunity to interview for positions in the new organization, and I ended up being rehired later into a different territory, but that’s a different story. The drive home was a pretty somber one for all of us, and it was accentuated by the heavy snow coming down and blowing. I did not have an AWD vehicle, just a standard Chevy sedan, wrangling snow building up on the two-lane highway. Every vehicle that went by in the oncoming lane left you awash in blowing snow and made seeing and driving very treacherous, leaving you in a whiteout for a few seconds. Semis could be seen in the front, but the back parts of each vehicle were invisible.

Explosion of glass

Hidden in the backwash of one, a jacked up pickup or utility-type truck was following way too close for good visibility of their own, but maybe being up pretty high helped them. I cleared the semi OK, but suddenly in the swirling snow behind it I saw the bumper and front tire of another vehicle, way too close to my front quarter-panel, and as it went by, the second truck clipped my mirror. That sedan had a mirror that was integral to the window, and the force of the mirror being hit exploded my driver’s side window into thousands of tiny glass cubes, leaving me with glass peppered into my face and hands, my lap full of small glass pieces, and everyone in the car with glass in their laps.

The truck kept going, and I was able to keep my car under control somehow and pull over after a bit. Traffic was steady in both directions, and the snowdrifts prevented me from immediately heading for the shoulder. When we were finally able to stop, I slowly swung out of my seat and shook the glass bits out of my clothes, and we wondered how we were going to complete four more hours driving with a blown-out window in a snowstorm. I dug in the trunk and took a corduroy sportcoat out of my suitcase, positioned it inside the broken window, and slammed the door to cover the opening. After picking the bigger glass bits out of my face in the mirror, we took off for the rest of the drive east. I think all four of us were thinking that if the truck had been even two inches further into our lane, we would have been in much worse shape. I never even wanted to think how much worse it easily could have been; I just accepted that we either got lucky or were blessed.

Someone was watching out for me that day.

Hotte tumbide

God moments

I had the wonderful opportunity to visit India in 2019. My first stop was in Tiptur, Karnataka, about 3 hours’ drive west of Bengaluru. They speak a language called Kannada there. Hoṭṭe tumbide (sounds like “otay toombiday”) is a Kannada phrase that means “Full stomach”. When I learned the phrase, I had just finished a very filling lunch meal with 5-6 Karnatakan fellows, and while I indeed had a full stomach from the fantastic lunch presentation and meal, they helped me understand that hoṭṭe tumbide had a second meaning or connotation, that one’s life was full, a feeling encompassing gratefulness and peaceful satisfaction, one which transcended the fullness from the meal itself. I found myself feeling that hoṭṭe tumbide feeling, along with a desire to help others experience that feeling. It lent itself well to using it as a general greeting. The locals certainly found it engaging and positive.

The day we were there was an Indian holiday, and many families and children were everywhere, all dressed up and enjoying the gorgeous day together. As we were leaving the restaurant, I saw a couple getting themselves situated on a scooter with their little girl. No, it did not look safe to me, having been schooled on car seats as we are in the U.S. As I walked by them, I couldn’t help but lean over, smile, and tell them very quietly, “You have a beautiful daughter.” The little girl seemed to leap straight out of her mother’s arms and into mine – I was completely surprised by her move and really just caught her and scooped her up, glad that I didn’t drop her! I was even more surprised when she just put her little head on my shoulder. One of my business associates was quick with his camera, as you can see. What a darling girl and the parents were as proud as could be. In the part of rural India where I was, white folks were not a big chunk of the people I saw, and I thought she might be more scared than welcoming, but instead I felt like one of the family. Hoṭṭe tumbide. Gratefulness.

I am grateful for that wonderful moment of Grace.